“AHAB TOLD Jezebel all that Elijah had done and how he had slain all the prophets [of Baal] with the sword. Then Jezebel sent a messenger to Elijah, saying, So let the gods do to me, and more also, if I make not your life as the life of one of them by this time tomorrow. Then he was afraid and arose and went for his life and came to Beersheba of Judah [over eighty miles, and out of Jezebel’s realm] and left his servant there. But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness and came and sat down under a lone broom or juniper tree and asked that he might die. He said, It is enough; now, O Lord, take away my life; for I am no better than my fathers.” I Kings 19:1-4
It is that place, under the juniper tree, we ask if we might die; that we have had enough. Have ever you come to that place? The place that you have had enough of life, so much so that existence is far too painful to bear? When life becomes so painful and death is not an option, something of value awaits. Your pain is screaming ‘you are not enough,’ but God reveals through your pain, ‘you are.’ When you cannot fight or run, you must stand – stand in the pain of the question until an answer comes through the fire.
There are answers under the juniper tree that can come from no other place; the ravens will feed you there, and instruction will come.